Tomorrow: In Which I Honor Pinky & Brain and Try to (Metaphorically) Take Over the World
Being blind is difficult. But it's not just being blind, it's the cyclical nature of my mental focus. Getting hit in the head is like in the cartoons. You get whacked, and there's a cross-eyed shock, then everything starts vibrating like cymbals. What isn't visible is the lasting and debilitating damage to the neural trees. A nice way to say whatever was learned and sitting on those neural trees is now gone. My mind orbits like the zodiac, except only some of the signs are illuminated.
What that means is? Today I'm productive. Tomorrow I might not be. I might not be productive again for days, weeks, or months. I seem to be getting better in a way I haven't experienced in a long time. I can't remember being this focused in close to 30 years. Brain injuries are scary for the limitations they introduce.
I'm going to do everything I can to try to make tomorrow as productive as today, if not more-so, but who knows. So many stresses in my life I would have been woefully unprepared for even if healthy. With limited visibility in mind? I'm blessed to be alive, but people mess with me - bad.
The thing I like about today is that I've been able to make progress to get a lot of pieces in place to start showcasing Awesome Sauce Java. I keep going back to getting macros into working shape as a seminal event. It seems to have broken a log-jam in mind, because there's a lot moving suddenly.
For example, since getting macros working, I've managed to get my development world configured so I can start building stand-alone applications. Tomorrow I'll spend time working on a demo app. Plus, since macros are working and I'm on top of debugging them, I can also start working with the HTML generation code.
What all that means is that tomorrow I can build a test application, configure it to be a launchable desktop app, and upload it to Amazon. It doesn't have to be much, just a little calculator or task manager, or maybe a calendar. Just something to get the process started so I can get the pipeline built and make the language real to the outside world.
Once an application pipeline is configured, I can not only split time working with apps, I can spend time working with Awesome Sauce Java for the web. It'll probably take a few days, but I should be able to put up a live website powered by Awesome Sauce Java and highlight some sample code. That way, the language becomes real for a server side web solution and I can demo and highlight the expressive power.
I'm going to do my best to keep things going. I stalled out a lot today, but once I managed to get things going, I was able to keep things going. I seem to remember I worked pretty quickly before the big whack in 1990/91, whenever it happened. But it's been hard to remember much of anything since the assault in 2010.
Both injuries created an internal blindness that's made life difficult. But they both destroyed my ability to communicate verbally, or in ad-hoc ways, outside of very limited conversation. It's taken a lot of years to learn to write again. Five years ago, when I remember starting to write software again, everything was a mess.
Truth is, I've spent a lot of the last 27 years quiet and alone, or just listening to other people talk, often wondering how I ended up listening to whoever I've been listening to. There are a lot of people who think it's fun to mess with me. I'm hoping that making progress on Awesome Sauce Java will help create a more normal life, including the opportunity to be around more healthy people, interested in ideas, inventions, diet, and ways to make a positive difference in the world.
Have a great night!
Michael
2/27/18
What that means is? Today I'm productive. Tomorrow I might not be. I might not be productive again for days, weeks, or months. I seem to be getting better in a way I haven't experienced in a long time. I can't remember being this focused in close to 30 years. Brain injuries are scary for the limitations they introduce.
I'm going to do everything I can to try to make tomorrow as productive as today, if not more-so, but who knows. So many stresses in my life I would have been woefully unprepared for even if healthy. With limited visibility in mind? I'm blessed to be alive, but people mess with me - bad.
The thing I like about today is that I've been able to make progress to get a lot of pieces in place to start showcasing Awesome Sauce Java. I keep going back to getting macros into working shape as a seminal event. It seems to have broken a log-jam in mind, because there's a lot moving suddenly.
For example, since getting macros working, I've managed to get my development world configured so I can start building stand-alone applications. Tomorrow I'll spend time working on a demo app. Plus, since macros are working and I'm on top of debugging them, I can also start working with the HTML generation code.
What all that means is that tomorrow I can build a test application, configure it to be a launchable desktop app, and upload it to Amazon. It doesn't have to be much, just a little calculator or task manager, or maybe a calendar. Just something to get the process started so I can get the pipeline built and make the language real to the outside world.
Once an application pipeline is configured, I can not only split time working with apps, I can spend time working with Awesome Sauce Java for the web. It'll probably take a few days, but I should be able to put up a live website powered by Awesome Sauce Java and highlight some sample code. That way, the language becomes real for a server side web solution and I can demo and highlight the expressive power.
I'm going to do my best to keep things going. I stalled out a lot today, but once I managed to get things going, I was able to keep things going. I seem to remember I worked pretty quickly before the big whack in 1990/91, whenever it happened. But it's been hard to remember much of anything since the assault in 2010.
Both injuries created an internal blindness that's made life difficult. But they both destroyed my ability to communicate verbally, or in ad-hoc ways, outside of very limited conversation. It's taken a lot of years to learn to write again. Five years ago, when I remember starting to write software again, everything was a mess.
Truth is, I've spent a lot of the last 27 years quiet and alone, or just listening to other people talk, often wondering how I ended up listening to whoever I've been listening to. There are a lot of people who think it's fun to mess with me. I'm hoping that making progress on Awesome Sauce Java will help create a more normal life, including the opportunity to be around more healthy people, interested in ideas, inventions, diet, and ways to make a positive difference in the world.
Have a great night!
Michael
2/27/18
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