Awesome Sauce Java with Hot Sauce OS

Being blind is difficult.  But it's not just being blind, it's the cyclical nature of my mental focus.  Getting hit in the head is like in the cartoons.  You get whacked, and there's a cross-eyed shock, then everything starts vibrating like cymbals.  What isn't visible is the lasting and debilitating damage to the neural trees.  A nice way to say whatever was learned and sitting on those neural trees is now gone.  My mind orbits like the zodiac, except only some of the signs are illuminated. What that means is? Today I'm productive.  Tomorrow I might not be.  I might not be productive again for days, weeks, or months.  I seem to be getting better in a way I haven't experienced in a long time. I can't remember being this focused in close to 30 years. Brain injuries are scary for the limitations they introduce. I'm going to do everything I can to try to make tomorrow as productive as today, if not more-so, but who knows.  So many stres...

My life has been fun, but at times quite challenging. Drought, earthquakes, crazy numbers of cats and at the same time, bugs, head injuries I watched from 15 feet away from my body, bad doctors, and a whole lot of bad characters. But I keep going because it keeps getting better.  I've been poor a long time, but I know money will come. How do I know? The drought ended. Nothing lasts forever. Bad people might try to make us look bad, but the truth always comes to light. Which brings me to Awesome Sauce Java with Hot Sauce.  Awesome Sauce is the language. It's dynamic and fast and puts Java in a format that works for me. I've learned more Java with it than ever before. But it kicks my butt a lot and frustrates me. Like today, while working on the HTML generating code, I realized I implemented macros in a weird way. Or I'm not understanding how I implemented them.  That happens sometimes when I haven't worked with a set of logic, block of code, or mode of operatio...