Too Many Choices...Stalling
The possibility exists somebody stole my code. I know nothing about security or firewalls. My computer's been hacked before. My ideas are probably gone. Worse, it's likely I'm being made to look like I'm the one who took the idea. I started ASJ as a product called Spliff (Lisp + Java as Splivaja sounded ucky, I wanted Lisp in the name, so for a while, it was Spliff.)
I started it all in 2015 and have written it without any assistance since. I made all the design decisions for the internal structure, and have used the language to design new features that are exciting and advanced. I'd hate to lose it to somebody else, but I'm also one short step from homeless, smell like racoon crap, and get harassed like a Dhimmi in NYC of the state of New York, in the United States of America.
Nobody believes me and it's a frightening place to be. Especially with the stack of inventions I have. Or thought I had. People steal. People lie. I don't, because I live by the Ten Commandments. Few people do these days. Worse, they seem to enjoy making people like me, who follow the Ten Commandments out to be liars. If it wasn't really happening, I'd happily allow myself to be called paranoid. It's tragic. It's real.
The world today is in a sad state. Gog and Magog has been described as a mental war. But it appears it's likely both mental/spiritual and physical. The world exalts thieves, it's so easy to make an honest person look like a liar that it's frightening. Photoshop is just the start.
When I worked in science, things advanced so fast it was remarkable. We used to talk about advancements like they were good things. Now, everything's twisted.
I've spent today chasing my tail. I had a plan, but can't see where to take the language. Too many choices, with no reason to go forward. What's the point if it's just going to get stolen? Worse, why bother if they're going to steal it then accuse me of stealing my own work? Don't believe it could happen? You can't imagine how evil some of the people I'm around are. No morals. No health. I'm not a person to so many people, it's sad. I find myself trying to converse with people then realize I'm being spoken over, one-upped, and told to shut up. I'm told my knowledge is crazy by people on a daily basis.
The plan was to sketch up internal designs. Then I was going to do some research on how to start making Awesome Sauce Java into a cloud-based product or products. It's so fast to build products in, and the web part is so stable and fast, there has to be something there. But I lose my faith when I realize it's probably just so someone can steal it. Or they already have. Or it's all just stupidly futile because the world is on fire and nobody talks. At all.
And kids are telling adults how things are supposed to be. With barely any perspective or life experience. And adults don't talk, but feed their cheering section. Divide and conquer. We're beyond divided. That means we're conquered. Right? It's hard to be excited about having designed and written a programming language when nobody even comments. Except those who tell me to use Clojure, quit because it's not modern. Or just quit. There are plenty of languages and mine is stupid.
Or they're saying that so they can get me to quit so they can lay claim to it. It's faster than anything I've used. It's a more stable Java. I have to keep reminding myself it's damn good. It has self-healing code designed and ready to go in. It's got an advanced package system. It will empower simultaneous, localized coding across linguistic barriers. Web and applications editable at runtime, in real-time. There are so many reasons to keep going. The notion that people might want to steal it, or already have stolen it? I've had so many things stolen from me, it just wouldn't surprise me.
I hope it's just a bad day. Too many bad things on my mind. Too many worries. But I'm not naive and see what people say and how they treat me. It's sad that people decide they know they're special for whatever reason, and that specialness gives them license to treat another like a lesser than, subhuman, slave, or animal. I'll never understand that. Ever.
Just like I won't understand why someone would make another person look bad for any reason. Or why anybody would steal what they didn't create, what isn't theirs, what they have no right to. It's sad because it's life-destroying. It's when man turns himself into god and creates a reality never intended to exist while destroying the reality God created. It's evil. Pure evil.
I hope I get my focus back. So I can fight the good fight, no matter how it goes. I'd rather align myself with God's laws and do my best to honor them, than give up and turn my back on them. People see them as absolutes and people honoring God as having a desire to be perfect. Nothing could be further from the truth. God asks us to keep trying and keep praying and asking and seeking guidance. Nobody is perfect, but we can grow and create a better world. One with far less waste and far more reverence for health and the rules that God shares. Because they're all about creating a healthy life.
Time to get back to seeing what I can do with this giant programming language and all the things I've designed to build on top of it over the last 15, 20, 36 years of writing software. There's a lot of opportunity, hopefully that becomes tools that empower people to get more done in less time.
Have a great day.
Michael
2/25/18
I started it all in 2015 and have written it without any assistance since. I made all the design decisions for the internal structure, and have used the language to design new features that are exciting and advanced. I'd hate to lose it to somebody else, but I'm also one short step from homeless, smell like racoon crap, and get harassed like a Dhimmi in NYC of the state of New York, in the United States of America.
Nobody believes me and it's a frightening place to be. Especially with the stack of inventions I have. Or thought I had. People steal. People lie. I don't, because I live by the Ten Commandments. Few people do these days. Worse, they seem to enjoy making people like me, who follow the Ten Commandments out to be liars. If it wasn't really happening, I'd happily allow myself to be called paranoid. It's tragic. It's real.
The world today is in a sad state. Gog and Magog has been described as a mental war. But it appears it's likely both mental/spiritual and physical. The world exalts thieves, it's so easy to make an honest person look like a liar that it's frightening. Photoshop is just the start.
When I worked in science, things advanced so fast it was remarkable. We used to talk about advancements like they were good things. Now, everything's twisted.
I've spent today chasing my tail. I had a plan, but can't see where to take the language. Too many choices, with no reason to go forward. What's the point if it's just going to get stolen? Worse, why bother if they're going to steal it then accuse me of stealing my own work? Don't believe it could happen? You can't imagine how evil some of the people I'm around are. No morals. No health. I'm not a person to so many people, it's sad. I find myself trying to converse with people then realize I'm being spoken over, one-upped, and told to shut up. I'm told my knowledge is crazy by people on a daily basis.
The plan was to sketch up internal designs. Then I was going to do some research on how to start making Awesome Sauce Java into a cloud-based product or products. It's so fast to build products in, and the web part is so stable and fast, there has to be something there. But I lose my faith when I realize it's probably just so someone can steal it. Or they already have. Or it's all just stupidly futile because the world is on fire and nobody talks. At all.
And kids are telling adults how things are supposed to be. With barely any perspective or life experience. And adults don't talk, but feed their cheering section. Divide and conquer. We're beyond divided. That means we're conquered. Right? It's hard to be excited about having designed and written a programming language when nobody even comments. Except those who tell me to use Clojure, quit because it's not modern. Or just quit. There are plenty of languages and mine is stupid.
Or they're saying that so they can get me to quit so they can lay claim to it. It's faster than anything I've used. It's a more stable Java. I have to keep reminding myself it's damn good. It has self-healing code designed and ready to go in. It's got an advanced package system. It will empower simultaneous, localized coding across linguistic barriers. Web and applications editable at runtime, in real-time. There are so many reasons to keep going. The notion that people might want to steal it, or already have stolen it? I've had so many things stolen from me, it just wouldn't surprise me.
I hope it's just a bad day. Too many bad things on my mind. Too many worries. But I'm not naive and see what people say and how they treat me. It's sad that people decide they know they're special for whatever reason, and that specialness gives them license to treat another like a lesser than, subhuman, slave, or animal. I'll never understand that. Ever.
Just like I won't understand why someone would make another person look bad for any reason. Or why anybody would steal what they didn't create, what isn't theirs, what they have no right to. It's sad because it's life-destroying. It's when man turns himself into god and creates a reality never intended to exist while destroying the reality God created. It's evil. Pure evil.
I hope I get my focus back. So I can fight the good fight, no matter how it goes. I'd rather align myself with God's laws and do my best to honor them, than give up and turn my back on them. People see them as absolutes and people honoring God as having a desire to be perfect. Nothing could be further from the truth. God asks us to keep trying and keep praying and asking and seeking guidance. Nobody is perfect, but we can grow and create a better world. One with far less waste and far more reverence for health and the rules that God shares. Because they're all about creating a healthy life.
Time to get back to seeing what I can do with this giant programming language and all the things I've designed to build on top of it over the last 15, 20, 36 years of writing software. There's a lot of opportunity, hopefully that becomes tools that empower people to get more done in less time.
Have a great day.
Michael
2/25/18
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