If There's a Tomorrow? This is what I'll Do

Just trying to get my focus back. I think the most difficult part of building a language with no income, a tenuous living situation in a room that smells like racoon poop (it's beyond nuclear, it's cruel and inhumane torture), sometimes having food/sometimes not, one pair of pants, three t-shirts, six pairs of socks, and a pair of shoes that suggest pre-meditation on the part of my ex-wife because they're named Apt 9 like the Apt 9 I'm being tortured in.  She bought me an Apt 9 shirt, too. And a pair of skin colored Dickey's.

And they call me "the Colonel" behind my back, because my dad was a Colonel - though at 35 he was about to be promoted to whatever rank the boss of a Brigadier General is.  It's just mean to call a guy who lost his dad in 1974, when I was 11, a name intended to highlight some kind of military affiliation because of dad. I loved my dad, but his military crap was his.

I learned how stupid it was to follow orders when I ran my sister over the day the training wheels came off. Because dad ordered me to go straight and she walked right into my path while excitedly exclaiming to her 2 sidekick 5 year olds, "Hey everybody, look! My brother's riding a bike!" Without the order to go straight, I would have avoided her. Orders & the military are lame. I study religion. Killing is stupid.

The most difficult part of building software is staying focused and not freaking out. I'm shocked I've been able to keep going, when the forces of evil arrayed against me are at least a handful of broken old men with major health issues.  Whatever. I could digress into it, but it's designed to make me smell, look, and sound crazy and nobody believes anybody when they smell like nuclear racoon poop. Only somebody with a lot of real estate experience would know about racoon as a weapon of mass destruction. They stink unreal bad.

Focus on Code, Not the Adult 13 Year Olds

Today's work has been about supporting UI development.
Tomorrow I'm going to
  1. Build a UI with it, make sure it works.
  2. Build and test some HTML code.
  3. Finalize the defmacro implementation and processing.
  4. Frame out the ASJ to Jar Compiler. It's been designed for a long time. The language internals have a self-similarity to the external language (it's like fractal, yo), so it was very quick and easy to design the compiler. Will see about compiling a defun form, hopefully tomorrow, but it might take a day or two to kind of let things simmer or be like tea and steep into it.
 Yesterday was supposed to be UI development day. I'm blocked by the stresses in my life. I wish I could put together a crowd funding campaign that worked enough to allow me to have a living situation that didn't involve such unreal stresses. I'd be able to work at home, have a lot of consistency and tools, and make a lot more progress. This running around to libraries and coffee shops while worrying is stressful.

Whatever. It's all I have.  So until I manage to get back on my feet somehow, I have to find a way to keep going.

Will add to the list tomorrow morning, when I've had the chance to figure out what the next parts are. I believe in myself and even thought managing time is difficult, I feel like I'm going fast on a project that's both a lot of code and a lot of complexity made to be very usable.  I have to believe that's good for something.

Have a great night!

Michael
3/1/18

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